In honour of today June 2nd being World Eating Disorder Action Day, I thought I’d share some things that I, a person with an eating disorder, wishes other people understood.
People with eating disorders come in all shapes and sizes and from all backgrounds
Most people assume everyone with an eating disorder is young, female, privileged, emaciated and suffering from anorexia. While yes, some of us are thin, the majority of eating disorder sufferers aren’t underweight and during their journey, many people’s weight will move up and down. That doesn’t mean they’re suffering any less. Males get eating disorders. People not in their 20s, get eating disorders. People of colour get eating disorders. So do rich people and poor people. They do not discriminate.
Appearing healthy does not mean that you are
Many people suffer in silence because they don’t look sick and since they don’t look sick, they may assume they don’t deserve help. Eating disorders are a mental health issue and you can’t see the extent of suffering. Furthermore, recovering from a restrictive disorder physically does not mean that someone is mentally recovered. For me, gaining weight caused a switch to bulimia and an increase in suicidal thoughts. Things that you couldn’t see.
They’re about so much more than food and weight
A lot of time is spent thinking about food and weight, but this is a way to numb and distract from the issues we are unable to face. Fundamentally, they are a way of coping from things like low self-esteem, academic pressures, other mental illness, bullying and trauma. They can be about control or perfectionism or safety. Eating disorders are complex and please don’t assume you understand them.
Eating disorders are not a choice
People choose to go on diets but no one chooses an eating disorder. Eating disorders choose you. No one wakes up one day and says hey, ‘I’m going to destroy my body’. There’s a mix of social, environmental and genetic factors that predispose someone to getting ill.
They’re all consuming
For someone suffering severely, almost every minute of every day is spent thinking about food. Eating disorders are exhausting and isolating because most social interactions revolve around food. They come before your job, your studies, your loved ones.
‘Your prime relationship is with your eating disorder, it consumes you and leaves little time for anyone or anything else’- Jessica Schiffer
Commenting on my food or body (or yours) is never helpful
Negative comments can obviously feed into eating disorders but so too can positive ones. Reassuring someone that they ‘aren’t fat’ is suggesting to them that they need to take action so that they stay that way, reinforcing the ideas of disordered eating. Positive comments such as ‘you look good’ or ‘you’ve lost weight’ suggest that a person’s value lies in their appearance and can be extremely gratifying, meaning that people may become more ingrained in their illness. Talking about your body and diet is triggering and unnecessary and deeply unhelpful.
Recovery can take a long time
For a lot of people, it can take years. Years of therapy and dieticians and appointments. This might include hospitalisation. Then there are the relapses and setbacks. Someone might be fine for a while and then ‘bam’, things start going downhill. Don’t assume that there is a simple fix because this is a problem that has often been there for a while. But getting better is possible. Recovery is worth it.